Monday, 20 November 2017

Let's Regroup

I started writing this post back in August and the original title was 'Mid-Year Regroup' and now it's nearing the end of November. The time has come and gone to do any sort of mid-year regroup but I've made up my mind to return to a semi-regular blogging schedule and after more than six months of sporadic blogging a regroup is definitely in order!

I've managed to post an extremely general and not very interesting post once a month or so but nothing more than that so here's a month by month summary of what I've been up to since I essentially stopped blogging back in February.

February & March// This two months blend together in a lot of 'what the heck am I doing here'. My introduction to the new job and new community and all the newness was a struggle. I'm pretty sure the only motivation for sticking with it was pure stubbornness and a vague belief that everything happens for a reason and this is the place I was meant to be in this moment.

April// By April I felt a little more hopeful that maybe my 'yes' to this adventure wasn't a colossal regret. There were sprinklings of 'God Moments' and I found myself breathing a little easier, feeling a little less anxious and cautiously optimistic.

May// Some, but not all of the decreased stress and optimism followed me into May. Some days were easier than others but I still felt like I was in survival mode just making it through the day. I think I learned a lot during the month and was really excited that spring had arrived!

June// I was so happy that winter was really over. I spent a lot more time outside, going for walks in the evening and going with the flow. Looking back over the year the common thread seems to be that when I was 'going with the flow' life felt easier and happier. Maybe that's because I've been reading a lot of books and listening to a lot of podcasts lately on the theme of flow/living with intention etc.

July// The beginning and middle of July was pretty great. I felt like I was maybe starting to hit my stride and finding my place. I was house and pet sitting for most of the month and it was really lovely having pets to keep me company in the evening and having access to satellite T.V..  I was able to visit camp at the end of the month and that heavily influenced August...

August// I spent a lot of this month in tears and was kind of a basket case. After visiting camp at the end of July I had a whole lot of feelings. I did pull myself together coming on the end of the month, heavily infused by the fact I found out I would get to move in September!

September// At the first of the month I moved (again) to a new apartment! I'm anticipating living here for at least a year before I even contemplating moving again. It's much nicer than the first apartment I lived in, has much more privacy and I've been more interested in making it feel like home since I know I'm going to be here for awhile.

October// I had really great weekends in October and it was so nice to have that option. H. & R. came to visit when I was in the other apartment but it was pretty cramped and it rained the whole time. I love being able to host people and cook supper and have room for overnight guests! I let some negative people make me feel pretty terrible far often than I should this month. This has really been my first experience directly working with Passive Aggressive Negative Nelly's on a daily basis and it's a huge learning curve.

And there you have it, that brings us to November and things are still chugging along. I've never done a Q&A post before and I'm not even sure how many readers are still around there parts but I'll put it out there - if there's any burning questions you'd like to have answers to since I last blogged let me know in the comments and I'll compile a post!

Sunday, 12 November 2017

November Life

Personal Life// It's been a full two months since I moved and having a place that feels more long term has made a big difference. This month I'm modifying my evening schedule and even though it's only been a week I'm loving the amount of breathing room it's given me. 

Hobbies// I'm working through July in my Project Life album and seriously considering going weekly for 2018. It seems like a big undertaking and I also feel like I can make it work. My Blog is in need of some serious TLC, I managed to get rid of the unsightly PhotoBucket error images but now buttons to Bloglovin' and Instagram are also gone. If anyone knows how to fix that I'd appreciate the help!

Career// Some days I feel like it's starting to come together. Other days that statement couldn't be farther from the truth. I really need to do a full post dedicated on this topic. In general things are okay, there are pros and cons and somedays one of those columns outweighs the other. Likely, that's the way it's always going to be and it's a matter of deciding what to focus on in any given moment. 

Spirituality// Why are Bible Journal supplies so darn expensive?! I guess more specifically Single Column Bibles because I already have all of the other supplies. They all seem to be in the $50-$100 range BEFORE shipping. Maybe I'm just looking in the wrong places?  Other than that I still have a really solid bedtime routine and I've found some great podcasts that have help deal with life's stresses. 

Health// Reclaiming my evenings is going to make this a lot easier. I'm excited to meal plan again and have more control over meals. I've been doing much better in the realm of hydration. I did wind up with an autumn cold but I powered through and it only lasted a couple of days. I know I'm a much happier human when I sleep well so I try really hard to make that a priority and most days I'm successful. 

Goals// I've been reading a lot lately about the difference between goals and intentions (also a separate post) and it's totally reframed the way I think about accomplishments. While I continue to think about the implications of that I'm not making any new goals.


Sunday, 22 October 2017

September/October Life 2017

Personal Life// At the beginning of September I moved to a new apartment which was a majorly positive change. I'm struggling a little to get out of the work-place bubble. I really miss being involved in Guiding but the closest units are about 45 minutes away and that's just not practical in winter. A coworker/friend is determined to set me up with someone, the first guy hasn't worked out because he moved out west for work (much like most males in my dating age bracket). Now she has someone else in mind so stay tuned for those developments. 

Hobbies// I've managed to catch up as far as mid-June in my Project Life album so that's coming along. It's been awhile since I've done any pretty planning in my planner but I did buy a new sketch book and have done a few pages of what many would consider 'art journalling'. Books have been gathering dust in favour of re-watching Grey's Anatomy on Netflix. I usually read about one book a month but could (and should!) be reading more.

Career// Some days I feel like it's starting to come together. Other days that statement couldn't be farther from the truth. 

Spirituality// I still really like the idea of Bible Journalling but haven't done a darn thing to make that a reality. I'm still journalling and keeping a gratitude journal with an acceptable level of consistency. Recently I discovered a really great podcast that I've been trying to listen to and reflect on at least every second day.  

Health// It's ironic that one of the reasons I'm spending some time blogging this afternoon is because I've somehow acquired a cold and lack motivation to move from my couch. I was in a good rhythm for a while with eating & sleeping & hydrating and then I made a hard left. Now my sleep schedule is inconsistent, I've been eating weird meals and drinking too much coffee and not enough water. 

Goals// I've been doing some research on 'goals' versus 'intentions' and it's really changed my perspective on the whole topic. The difference between setting a goal to practice self care implies that there's a time limit on it and once it's achieved it's done. Having the intention to practice self care implies that it's not just something you do and is done but something you are constantly considering when you're thinking about goals. Moving to a new apartment was definitely a goal because now it's accomplished and it's not something I need to think about again for a while. All that to day I'm doing some reevaluating on what are my goals and what are my intentions. 

I have some drafts kicking around that I'm going to attempt to edit and get published this week. First though I'm going to eat some soup and watch an episode of Grey's before summoning all the motivation to move off the couch. 

Sunday, 6 August 2017

August Life 2017

Personal Life// I spent the month of July house/pet sitting and it was a really good break. It helped me shake off some of the post-camp life sadness and refocus on the things I should be focusing on. I am forever thankful for H. & R. who continue to help me navigate life, especially lately when sometimes that just looks like Skyping with me while I mumble about life. 

Hobbies// Having a whole house to myself instead of my small apartment meant that I spent a whole weekend surrounded my Project Life supplies and playing catch up. I'm still really far behind in terms of finished pages but I have photos printed until mid-June and have finished until the middle of March so things aren't as bleak as they once were. I am going to try to dedicate one weekend a month to catching up and hopefully by the end of the year I'll be up to date. I had my camera out more frequently in July and that also made me happy. 

Career// There were times this month when I felt really good about life. And then there was the week I spent mostly in tears because I can't believe I walked away from camp. I've been an emotional mess in this arena lately and it probably is going to stay like that for a little while longer. 

Spirituality// I've been doing a lot of research on Bible Journalling and am thinking about jumping on board that trend. I've always doodled and made notes in the margins of my Bible but I like the idea of taking it up a notch. The biggest hurdle is that I can't seem to find a n affordable Journalling Bible. I'd like one that has designated columns for journalling but I don't want to spend $100 on one. Suggestions? 

Health// Having a dog around made it so much easier to go for evening walks. And the warm weather always makes it easier to drink more water since I always have my water bottle with me. The eating breakfast trend lasted about two weeks before I returned to 

Goals// I still keep telling myself that this is the month I start blogging again. And then the month goes by and the opportunity is gone. There is a lot  of things I miss about blogging though and I think that once fall comes I'll be able to start figuring out some new routines that include more time for blogland. 

Thursday, 6 July 2017

July Life 2017

The one constant in life is that every time this link up rolls around I am shocked that another month has passed.

Personal Life// June was busy! There was Girl Guide Camp, a weekend visit from H. & R., a trip home and one rainy weekend that I mostly just spent indoors and rearranging my pantry. 

Hobbies// June seemed to have a lot of full weekends and as a result I didn't really make any time for for Project Life or blogging or anything that wasn't watching Netflix. 

Career// Maybe it's because I'm not the new(est) girl anymore but things are starting to feel a little better. Things are still 100x more difficult than what I thought they were going to be and that's hard but getting a little easier. Or I'm just learning to manage my expectations better.

Spirituality// Journalling is still going strong, I've almost filled a full notebook for the first half of the year and have a second one waiting in the wings. My 'word of the week' project ebbs and flows from week to week. I'm not entirely sure how many words I've gotten through but I know it's not on par with how many weeks have already past. 

Health// I'm making more of an effort to eat breakfast. Now that it's light out it's easier to wake up a little earlier and eat something before heading to the office. At least that's what I'm telling myself... I haven't been sleeping great so that might also be a factor. 

Goals// I'm working on a mid-year goal regroup post but in the mean time I want to focus on blogging more and getting caught up with my Project Life album. And doing some fun summer things that I haven't done in years because I've always been at camp!

Linking up with Gretch & Kristen!

Thursday, 1 June 2017

June Life 2017

May was a roller coaster. Over the course of the month I experienced the full range of emotions...occasionally all within a 24 hour time frame. And all of the ups and downs made it go by so quickly. I really can't believe May is over, it's been by far the fastest month since I started this new adventure. 

Personal Life// The beginning of May was really challenging, the middle of May was definitely a struggle and I'm ending the month feeling a little better about things but still uncertain. This weekend I'm heading to Girl Guide Camp and next weekend H. & R. are coming to visit. Both of those things are very exciting!

Hobbies// I didn't make a whole lot of time for any of the usual activities this month. My main hobby was re-watching Grey's Anatomy. It was pretty cold and rainy for most of the month so my evening walks didn't happen. I did squeeze in one afternoon of Project Life-ing and managed some reading so it wasn't a complete fail. 

Career// I feel a little more confident in what I'm doing this month. Although I'm still so far away from feeling like I have things organized and under control. 

Spirituality// Journalling continues to be an important part of my bedtime routine. Other than that I'm not really actively doing anything to keep life balanced. 

Health// My pop consumption definitely increased this month, so I'm going to work on reining that back to a more acceptable once or twice a week opposed to four or five times a week. 

Goals// I did splurge on an Erin Condren! I still feel a little ridiculous about spending that kind of money on a planner but it happened. I'm excited about the hourly template and to start using it at the end of June. Once again I didn't do so great in the blog post department. June is going to be for reading, writing and organizing. 

Linking up with Gretch & Kristen!

Monday, 22 May 2017

The First 100 Days

The week leading up to camp has always been full of little rituals and traditions. Things that made me feel prepared to start the summer. I would spend an evening assembling welcome bags for all the staff, an afternoon making warm fuzzy envelopes and many hours trying not to overpack but also not run out of clean clothes before the next laundry day rolled around. I would make sure to include a meal of three cheese pizza pops & pepsi into my camp prep, taking time to reflect on the beginnings of my camp love. And on the night before I would often craft the perfect pre-camp playlist to listen to during the drive. Instead of doing all those things I found myself navigating the complexities of palliative care. 

I always had a mini-celebration when I hit the "100 Days Until Camp" day and so I had decided that I would celebrate "100 Days" of this new life, which happened to fall on May 11. I had originally planned to celebrate by drinking my very last can of Vanilla Coke (that I had been saving for when I got a year round camp job), eating chips & dip and maybe watching The Parent Trap. I ended up spending the day in one of our organization's homes, which seemed like a much more fitting celebration. Even if it didn't involve any Vanilla Coke. 

On Friday morning after a full week of waiting for the inevitable, our community member passed away. Today there will be a wake and tomorrow a funeral. And amid all of those emotions I'm also trying to figure out how to navigate summer life without camp. The combination of all of that has made me a bit of a hot mess these past few days. Saturday I did three loads of laundry and debated asking the neighbours if they had any to do. Yesterday I got groceries and tidied by apartment and watched too many episodes of Grey's Anatomy. This morning I am going to help set up for the wake and then likely spend some time at the office. Even though it's a long weekend I need to be busy and productive because otherwise I'm sure I'll find myself pacing the living room. 

And maybe what I really need is to stop trying to keep myself busy and just let things settle. To give myself permission to be sort of sad but also excited about the possibilities of a summer without camp.